GREAT EXPECTATIONS...

Calmness is the mental state of being free from agitation, excitement, or disturbance...


Daily Status: no yelling, no hurries; I can almost say "no worries".

I'm trapped in a slow motion picture playing my life day after day. Its not bad, its not great, its just slow and again... calm. I have no real or big problems, thank God, and even if I do, no one has told me. I'm kind of dettached from reality for now. A weird wave of relaxing vibes surrounds me. Well, maybe I shouldn't say "relaxing", because I'm not quite relaxed. I know me, I don't do relaxing periods, at least not this long. I'm drama, excitement, pounding heart, cold sweaty hands and all that stuff. Most of the times I feel in the edge, as if every little decision I take will forever change my life. I'm in a constant battle between what I feel I should do, what I think I need to do and what, being honest, what's the right thing to do.

But none of this nonesense troubles me now, there's no questioning, no forseeking the future or worrying about it. Is just that tiny little voice inside me telling me I'm expecting the unexpected and waiting for something BIG to happen, whether is good or bad. So I'm just waiting... There's that saying "After the storm the calm always arrives". I got it backwards... "after the calm the storm arrives". I just know it, I mean c'mon, calm is not me, "free from agitation"?? pffff not me..... so I'll just wait to see what happens...